Since I know that no one comes here anymore I will put this here. I am not sure if I hope someone finds this or not. I am currently laughing and crying at the same time, so I'm sorry if none of this makes sense. I'm not sure how many of you knew me very well...but this clan...those of you that I met...it was a last ditch effort. When this died, I died. I know nothing should be taken this seriously. But it was something to grab on to. That's ok, right? I fought as hard as I could...that's enough, right? I am sorry to those of you I could not speak to as often after...it hurt, ya know? Sometimes it hurt too much. I don't know what's going to happen...but whatever it is, I love all of you, ok? I really do. I held on to everything as long as I could. I am so sorry. So sorry. I've been really sick since October, and constantly afraid of dying, since I might have cancer. I'm not afraid anymore though. I'm not afraid. I love you.